Monday, January 23, 2006
it's just that when i take on something,
i just want to do my best for it.
i like to be involved, to do my part.
and when the feeling of motivation dies down,
and stress takes over,
whatever that im doing sudd seems not worth it anymore.
it's not supposed to be this way,
im not supposed to feel this way.
wrong.
so wrong.
and what's worse when i have a sister who doesnt come home.
whom i feel doesnt belong to me anymore.
whom i feel like a stranger with.
whom i love and hate at the same time.
wrong.
so wrong.
and noises feel the house.
loud shouts, raising voices.
it's taking over me.
it's slowly taking me,
slowly.
Merser
